LOVE transcends death

Your presence is undeniably felt;
With which has enigmatically summoned completeness beyond my emptiness.

You never left;
I just forget.

Am sorry for being so numb;
Am just being defensive.
Why?
Coz’ when I lost you, I thought it was the END!
Letting you go is the hardest attempt.

Today, the 27th of October is the day you left us.
Or should I say, the day you have embraced the light!
It was the saddest day in our lives;
But LOVE transcends death;
Your love has always been deeply sensed.

I thank the Lord, our Savior, for his unconditional LOVE.
He shared YOU to be the light of the family.
In return, YOU shared His Good News in our hearts and whole being.

Mama, we love you!
Please deliver our message as well to Papa.

Thank you for everything.

This FREAKIN’ show!

Heart beats with nervousness;
Has controlled my consciousness.
Eyes wide shut;
Breathing edgily.
Can’t move, seemed paralyzed;
Hands and feet tied;
On a human roulette perfectly designed.
The spot light blocks all images;
Just shadows with bullish cackles.
Yes, am back!
Back in this FREAKIN’ showground!
Damn, I hate this.

I do not need a clue;
Nor answers why I am back;
Anticipated events turned to be overwhelming.
Expectations met;
But hastiness devoured beyond desperately wanting to be out!

I should have sense it coming.
I thought it was the end;
The sensitivity of my actions;
Of my decisions;
Just delivered me to another performance!

What do I need to survive?
FAITH.
FOCUS.
CONTROL.

Yes, am back!
Back in this FREAKIN’ showground!
There is no turning back;
Besides, this time this show is mine.

ENJOY this FREAKIN’ show, ANYWAY!

I AM WHAT SOCIETY DICTATES…

I am hurt.
Deeply hurt.

Am I forever be bounded with other people’s
… dictating sarcasms
… demanding favors
… unreasonable excuses
… egotistical motives
… unjustifiable threats
… blah blah blah!

They say, we have been gifted with the freedom to choose our happiness.
But ironically, people are hypocrites; all knowingly admitting they understand what FREE WILL is but honestly they don’t! Action speaks louder than words... and words can make or break me!

Are these just my manifested destiny? Or am I just reaping Karmic reactions from what I have done in the past? Or am I just being pathetically reactive towards my environment allowing it to instantaneously inflict self-pain?

Yes, I am hurt.
Deeply hurt.
And no one should be blamed except MYSELF!